Monday, December 30, 2013

An Open Letter to My Heavenly Father...

Dear Heavenly Father,
                I come to you today to first of all Thank You for all you have done for me, for saving me before I even took a breath of precious air, for loving me despite my faults, for showing me the path you so graciously paved for me to walk along beside you on, for creating my husband and my children, for allowing me to learn from my mistakes, for your unfailing forgiveness, and most of all your unconditional love. This past year has been a struggle for me. I have along the way forgotten who I am and what I am meant to do in this life. I have lost sight of your beautiful stoned path and see a dusty road before my eyes. I have chosen to do some horrible things, I have said some horrible things, I have strayed and became one of the lost instead of following and becoming a leader. I chose to walk among the world as one of them allowing my eyes to look upon myself instead of You, and I fell short doing the tasks you handed me.

Today I want to apologize to You, I want to say that I am so sorry for who I have allowed Satan to mold me into this past year, I want to ask for your forgiveness and guidance once again Father, I know I need it now more than ever; Thank You Father for Your forgiveness.

I want to ask for your guidance in the coming year, there are so many things that have been laid upon my heart, so many things that my fleshly body have prevented me from doing in the past, so many words that have been unspoken, and so many things that were left undone; I want to repair myself in the coming year, I want You to guide me upon what I need to focus most on Father, I want you to show me how to love more and anger less, listen more and speak less, cherish more and shove away less, slow down more and rush less, read more and watch less, write more and zone less, trust You more and myself less;  I want to do your work with all my heart and soul, I want to find out who I am in You rather than who I am in this world. I want to reach others across the globe whether it be with my blog or by a conversation at the park. I want to make beautiful imprints within my childrens hearts rather than empty holes of longing they will resent later in life, I want to be my husbands everything instead of his migraine, I want to be Your fountain of life to others rather than Your stone of silence to them. I want to rid myself of fear when sharing you is so amazing and needed in this world. Father I come to you in all of my fleshly and worldly brokenness and ask for your guidance in my life and future. I know that without you I will not be able to proceed and obtain happiness and joy. I need You Lord.
In Your Joyous Name, Amen

In this New Year I want to start over, I do not want to be the person I was within this past year. I want to cherish my life each and every moment, I want to cherish my babies more than ever, and I want to love my husband like he has never seen before. I want to focus on The King rather than all those worldly things that will not save me in the end.

When I started my blog a few years ago I never imagined anyone would read it, today I have thousands of pageviews each month, whether a person subscribes to my blog or not they at least read it, and I hope in some way it helped them at that time in their life. In 2014 I will be taking this blog in another direction, my plan is to share more posts about my daily life, my walk with our King, and my journey as a woman in today’s world. I want to reach people but in a different light, yes I still want to share certain beauty products or things that fascinate me but I want to reach you on a more inner level, in your heart.

Thank You to everyone who reads my blog, it means the world to me knowing I am reaching out there and in a sense meeting you through a computer. What started as a online journal has became a online smashbook so to speak. If I could reach through this screen and hug you I would.

2013 has been a heck of a ride, one that I don’t wish to do again in the coming year. 2014 will be different and so so much better than the year past.

I wish you all a Happy Early New Years, remember to make the most of it and enjoy the little things!

Much Love & Many Blessings, Kristen

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